GOODBYE

You could spend your whole high school years thinking that you can't wait till you are on your own and that you are completely ready to face the world and there is nothing to worry about...but...did you know that all those thought go down the drain when you get to your senior year of high school and you realize that holy shit you are gunna be on you own after this and is scares the shit out of you and you wish that you could go back to middle school and just do it all over again, not because you want to but because you are not really all that ready to face the world and be able to handle it...well at least i do sometimes...it doesn't mean

That you are a baby if you admit it, it just makes you human.

i have been thinking about my senior year(next year) and i wish that it wouldn't go by soo fast because then i might have more time with my senior friends who are graduating this year...and...i will be lying on my bed at like 3 im the morning think about all these things and it will hit me that my best friend is not gunna be there next year beside me and to help me through the hardest times during the day like i do for her. i hate it that she will not be there and that i won't see her for a long time. have you ever heard people say that how they will always keep in touch with one another. guess what? they DON'T. no one really is the same when they leave something like their childhood friends behind and you all know that.

I hate saying goodbye to the people that i love the most like family and my best and bester friends. i just do want to have to go through that kind of separation pain and it scares me to think that i might not ever see them again after this.

but what scares me the most is thinking that not only will i never see them again but what about if something happens to them and i have no way of knowing? have you ever thought about stuff like that.

.....IF NOT....

.....Maybe you should.....